Knowing and trusting that my Guidance knows where to take me next, I am following the 26/52 Repatterning Challenge with a very broad intent: What do I need to know next in order to show up in my highest and best capacity? On to Resonance Repatterning # 4: Writing Repatterning.
This repatterning is a conundrum for me. I’ve read my process over and over and it’s almost as if I am reading someone else’s session. In fact I may be. There is a hint at another lifetime … a pattern created in another life (either another lifetime of mine or within my ancestral line). A layer has been removed with this repatterning but it also points to so many more that I am not (yet) experiencing a lightening, relief, or dawning.
My desire to express through writing has been a part of my life for seemingly ever. And some part within me knows there are volumes to express. So, why is this Writing Repatterning, of all repatternings, the foggiest, the blurriest, the least satisfying to date? “Aha!,” says my coaching self, “that’s precisely why… because it is so core, it is so fundamental and defining to how You are to show up in this life. You think the most precious gem will be found just lying on the surface? Think again! 🙂”
So here is my thought process: I will continue with this Challenge in order but I may intersperse with another Writing one and another and another until light begins to dawn on this particular subject.
Some of the insights from this Repatterning made sense and I can physically feel their effects in and around me: What stops me from expressing myself freely and joyfully are too many other obligations. My “other obligations” are like a lid on the welling up of desire to express within me, creating pressure and frustration. Who am I to express on this or that topic? (I can “hear” Marianne Williamson’s welcome reply: Who are you not to express? Bless you, Marianne :-).
How about this humdinger: Women are useless if they cannot create. Whoa… if that concept doesn’t run deep and into several generations (to say nothing of our largely patriarchal society), I don’t know what does.
By no means unhelpful, this Repatterning left me with a hopeful note for my continuing journey through the Challenge: Expressing myself helps me heal myself and others. So you know what? I am using this blog for precisely that: healing myself. If it helps you heal, that is icing on the cake!
I love my Guidance’s humor. You know what the modality was to help me shift this layer surrounding expressing myself through writing? Clapping. As in 1. clearing stuck energy in certain areas of my auric field; 2. applause. How cool is that?!